Posted by: syncopated1 | April 2, 2011

Chapter 9: Obligation

Unstepping a mast at the end of the season. Boats. They make me happy too.We all have responsibilities, and we all have things that we must do. Have to do. No way out of it. We have to work, clean, exercise, pay bills, etc. And while we can’t avoid these things (though some of us do accidently, or not so accidently), the things we do everyday because we have to don’t ordinarily impinge upon our general mood, well being and happiness.

The problem comes when we find ourselves feeling obligated to do the things we love. Much like myself and these missives. For the last couple of weeks I have felt the “weight’ of what I am doing here. And by that I mean in my own head I have been blowing this way out of porportion as a simple work and activity. I kept coming up with ideas and deciding they weren’t worthy, but at the same time I have been feeling beholden to the writing. That I was letting people down by not writing. Like I said, I’ve been blowing what I’m doing here way out of proportion.

Which is the point, we need to do the things we love and like to do as often as we can. But we shouldn’t NEED to do the things we like and love. Being forced to do these things has a funny tendency to suck all the enjoyment out of it. If you feel, like I did, that something you once loved to do isn’t giving you satisfaction or making you yearn to do it I suggest taking a good and large step back. Question why it is you are doing what you do, and why you feel obligated to do it. Perhaps you just need to take a couple weeks off from that particular activity and let it percolate in the back recesses of your mind for some time.

Do what you love, want to do what you love…even if it is your job and you have to show up every single day to do it, WANT to do it. So how have I solved my problem? When I think of something that makes me happy in some way, I’ll writie about it and worry about it’s relative value to all the people I have conned into reading this later. Resolving that makes me happy.


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